I've always given myself credit for my strong points and been adept at ignoring my flaws. A few years ago I began asking the Lord to show me two things,--who I am in His eyes and who I am in the eyes of others. What a rude awakening!
There were times in the beginning I wanted to throw my hands up and say, "Enough already!". Now, for the most part, I just say, "Okay, bring it on!". It's not always easy to face the truth, but it frees me to do something about it. Identifying a problem doesn't make it easy to change, but it's a start.
I've had to drop "victim" from my vocabulary. Okay, fine, I'm working on dropping it. It's finally dawning on me that, whether by vice or virtue, I've earned every line and wrinkle, and every negative in my life. I take responsibility for that now. I don't accept blame because that just leads to self-loathing, but I do take responsibility.
The flip side is learning how precious I am to God. Regardless of my flaws. The miracle isn't even how much He loves me. The miracle is that I believe it. That's awesome!
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